In a few months, I will be turning 39 which will mark my last year in my 30s. It is crunch time. What I mean by crunch time is that I get more focused and consistent with the birthing the things in life that I have been carrying for so long. I have been hearing the whispers from that small still voice and it is time out for doing things a little here and a little there. I have to go full force with it. It will be ugly. It may even be uncomfortable. It may be awkward but it is something that has to be done.
Now on March 29, 2017, I decided to do the big chop with my hair and go natural. It is not like I have not done this before but for some reason this time, it required me to think this thing through and take into account the work that has to be put into doing it right. I was in the transition process of just letting the perm grow out and I was just wearing protective styles while I was going through but something was bothering me. I couldn’t quite put my finger on it but daily, I just never seemed to be satisfied with my look. I felt awkward and unsure. I took selfies and just was never pleased with any of them but I tried to force myself to like them. I was just uncomfortable in my skin. In my body. In my life. Everything around me just did not seem to mesh like I wished it did. It the midst of the chaos, there were good moments. Moments that I wished would last forever. Then there were the moments that I wish would just end. The uncertainty was present in full force but the one thing that I did know for sure was that the common denominator of it all was me. That little still voice was getting louder and louder about the things that I need to be doing get on track and wrangle it all together. That still voice was screaming louder and louder that there were some things that I needed to get a move on. So since I have cut my hair and am wearing a natural, I feel a freedom that I have never felt before. I am embracing my natural beauty and my natural self and it feels good. I have gone natural before but this feeling was not apart of it at all. This is only the beginning of something wonderful. I can feel it.
To anyone out there that is feeling like they are sitting, just sitting in a point in your life, then it is time to get up. Your first step is getting up and owning up to what it is time to do. No longer can you live in the shadows of others. No longer will you sit on the sidelines. No longer will you do a little here and a little there to just get ahead. It is time to really de-stress, de-clutter, and just revamp it all. It is not about what you will lose, it is more about what you will gain in the end. You may lose people and certain situations may become awkward but in the end you will gain a renewed mind, renewed sense of self, new view and a new leash on life. Everything that you may have lost in the process will be replaced and replaced abundantly. It will be more about quality and not quantity.
Let Chapter 39 begin…..